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i was about to sit down and blog. it would be the first time i had posted anything in several days. don’t know why, but i just haven’t had too much to say…

anyway, just as i was about to log on, ella started crying. so gretchen goes in there for a minute and soon emerges with the sounds of ella’s cries following her from the dark room. i guess ella wanted to see big papa. so i go in to rescue her.

i pick her up and say, “honey, it’s night-nights. you gotta go to sleep.” she’s all worked up. her perfect little fat butt is resting on my old callused hand, and she wraps her perfect little legs around my old fat belly. she struggles to gain control of her perfect little sobs in between perfect little breaths. finally, she calms down a little and rests her perfectly soft cheek against my old, freckled shoulder. i can feel her perfectly straight, strawberry-blond hair on my old, sore neck. i sing her a few lines of the song i made up last night while i was putting her to bed…”little girl, it’s been a long, long day. we saw the cows and pigs and watched the doggies play. little girl, don’t you cry on me, ’cause you don’t need your mama when you’ve got your daddy…” i normally sing her “thunder road,” but tonight i don’t feel like sharing the moment with the boss. just daddy and ella.

i run my finger up and down the tiny bumps of her perfect, fragile spine. then i trace her perfect, thin shoulder blades, all the while marveling at the remarkable way god put her together like a 3d puzzle of the most advanced level. she’s finally settled, and she’s ready to go back to bed. so i put her down, and i hand her the dolly/blanket that our friend courtney gave her, and i shush her a couple of times. then i step back and watch her settle on a final sleeping position while i rub her tears into my shoulder.

i was supposed to write about today, and church was good, and the youth group was pretty cool…but i just don’t care about all of that very much right now.

Posted on May 12th, 2008 by adamdeweber
Filed under: beauty, family, friends, music, people who rock, relationships, wisdom, worship