this is one of my favorite pictures i’ve taken recently.
she won’t barely sit still for more than a few seconds, normally. she wants to run around and throw stuff on the ground. she wants me to read a book to her, but about halfway through it she thinks i should be done and closes the book for me. she wants to watch a baby einstein “on the farm” movie, but then loses interest after she sees the guy who looks like her “grandpa sunshine” (dave lashey 
). she wants to dance with me and play “rosey,” but mostly she wants to watch me dance, and only for a few seconds. she really wants to play with my phone or my ipod, but she quickly loses interest even in those things.
but when i let her use one of my “phones” (it’s not actually an iphone, just an ipod, but she doesn’t know the difference) and i sit and use the other one she’ll sit there with me forever. when i hold up my phone to snap a photo, she’ll hold up her “phone” and do the same things, as in the above photo. i’ve noticed her mimicking me a lot more lately. she wants to be just like her daddy. and the allure of the phones is not the shining buttons, but the fact that she is doing what daddy is doing.
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what a frightening, humbling, wonderful, terrible thought! i’m so messed up. i do so much stupid stuff. i waste so much time on worthless crap. i’m so inadequate to be her hero. but i am. i’ve been told to enjoy this as much as possible now, while she still thinks i’m cool. so i’m trying to.
i’m trying to spend more time just sitting with her. i’m trying to spend more time reading to her. i’m trying to spend more time teaching her to pray. i’m trying to demonstrate the way that christ loves her by the way that i love her and her mom sacrificially. i’m trying to be the best dad.
i think she still thinks i am.
Posted on November 17th, 2008 by deWeb
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